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These two words are quite provocative. When taken at face value and in its utmost simplicity, “I Am” is a statement of purpose. Whatever it is that I see, smell, hear, touch or taste, I Am that and exist as that, for “good” or for “bad.” What I am experiencing now in the physical is EXACTLY the result of what I believe, which is not necessarily the same as I want to believe. How do I know? Because it is what it is, right now. How do I know that it is time to mow the lawn? I am mowing the lawn. How do I know it is time to resist mowing the lawn. I am resisting mowing the lawn. Simple.
When I fully accept myself, and all of the circumstances in “my” life, I Am certainty – one, beyond doubt. And yet, why is it so difficult to have full acceptance of what is? Would it make it easier to know who “I Am?”
Consider: What I resist, persists. Also consider this synopsis of “I Am:” when Moses was at the burning bush, he resisted his given mission, saying: “who Am I, that I should free the people out of Egypt?” To which “God” answers: “I will be with you…” Yet Moses doesn’t quite buy it. He continues: “when I say to the children of Israel, “God” has sent me to you, they will ask: “what is his Name?”’ They will question who Is “He?” To which “God” offered the famous: Ehyeh Asher Ehyeh, meaning “I Am That I Am, That I Was, and That I Will be; “I always was and I always will be.” What the heck does “I always was” mean? Doesn’t “God” have a beginning? Back to Exodus 3, ‘And then He said, “Thus you shall say unto the children of Israel, I Am has sent me unto you.”’
That brings some loaded questions: why the change from Ehyeh Asher Ehyeh to justEhyeh for “I Am?” Why is it that Moses could not take in the full-out version of the “God” Name, and had to resort to “I Am?” As long as the divine remains an undefinable and intangible dynamic, what chances do I have to see “God” face to face, to understand how “He” thinks, and ultimately, to know who “I Am,” since “I Am” is clearly one of the “God” Names of one of the world’s leading tradition?
The thing is: when I can’t fully accept myself, “I Am” as Moses, full of doubts and of fears concerning my divine mission. So I procrastinate to tomorrow the mowing of the lawn which I could do today. Next year, Zorro the Messiah will come, for now, let me sleep a little longer!
This is the context for our upcoming New Essenes meeting where we will share some new perspectives and practical insights which are revealed via the sacred names of “God” in Hebrew. This information can inspire us begin to really hear our calling, feel how we feel about it, and thus generate a space for something to change. This process is known as the QKabbalah, which is a Hebrew word meaning “receiving.” When I stop resisting and feel my feelings fully, I am hearing myself and thus, stand a much better chance of having my voice heard. I begin experiencing myself as a heart-centered leader, knowing the peace which comes through understanding… I am still, and know who I Am. That is the aim – I AM the AIM!
We will begin our meeting at noon EST / 11 AM CST / 9 AM PST this Sunday and page 26 “The Doubter of the Voice” of the New Essenes eBook (please make sure you have download the latest version). If you can join us live this time, great! If not, you may always listen to the archive or join us live for our next New Essene show via Elevate the Soul radio.
Included below is our meeting information, logistics and access to additional complimentary methods to learn more about XPR. Until then, peace be with you.
Maha, Michael & the emPowering NOW team