Are you a spiritual seeker?
See if you have a point of reference with one or more of the following wishes.
I wish I could be honest: I spend a lot of time over-committing to others, yet have difficulties taking care of myself... It’s hard for me to speak an honest yes or an honest no to the demands that are made of me. It’s like I am built to please, and quite frankly, it’s become quite unpleasant!
I wish I could land in this body: people tell me I’m brilliant. I am an avid reader of philosophical, psychological, self-help books on the inner workings of spirituality, meditation, healing, neurology, you name it! And yet, I have great difficulty bridging all my intellectual knowledge or applying it all the way into the physical realm... It’s like I’m here and not here at once; irritating to a max!
I wish I could heal myself: I am a “light worker” who, admittedly, has been unable to completely heal. The word “forgiveness” pushes my buttons as I can’t quite come to peace with a family member, or totally forgive something that happened in my life. However embarrassing it is for me to recognize it, there are times where not being able to heal myself takes my joy out of helping others.
I wish I would know my purpose: I see all those people that make a difference, I am so envious... I would love to know what I am here for, hear my own voice and really make a difference... Sometimes I think, if I could only be happy, that would be enough... But even that is hard... At times I dream of having a special skill, a modality, an idea to assist the planet, but then, it’s like I go back to sleep... This is SO confusing!
I wish I could just stop and rest: you know that uncomfortable moment when you go into a store and the sales clerk ask you if you’d like some help and you say: “I am just browsing?” Well, I’ve been “browsing” all my life... I go just far enough into a program to know I got to quit. If I were to get anywhere close to truth, I just run long enough to to make sure I don’t ever find. I have done all sorts of training, and yet never one fully... It’s exhausting!